Last Teen Year

Living your childhood was probably slow and really educational. But what happens when we hit the teens? Doesn't everyday seem to get shorter with each year you accumulate? Just realised that it was my last teen year... What happens when you're 19?

Monday, April 30, 2007

Daisy Rock ROCKS!

Ok...


So I did something 'sinful' and skipped Sunday school to guitar-shop hop with Essie...

See... It was Gospel Sunday and I invited her along.
Worship was alright, but it was really 'cold' after service... Ice ice ice...


Anyway... went over to Parklane Mall and POOF!

Guitars galore!


The majority of the shops were closed but one in particular was not...


Daisy Rock guitars going at 50% off!


OMG! They are all so pretty!!!
Ok.. I'm in no way a good guitarist, but a stylish guitar I can appreciate.


Look...
Might look kiddish, but if I can play it well... Who will dare say anything huh?



It's Atomic Pink by the way...


Since that day, I've checked out the site and found a few models I would LURVE...





Plum Purple Acoustic-Electric

Pink Sparkle Acoustic


Violet Burst Elite

Rock Candy Red Star


I think the Plum Purple is the one I would get...
Oh Gosh...
I'm aching just thinking about it...
Ackkk....

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Boo!



Know why Essie is my Bestie?

Simple really...
She brings out the best in me.

I don't feel as hopeless as I did about the coming exams now...
But this episode sure taught me a lesson...
A lesson I took far too much time to learn...

BE CONSISTENT IN YOUR STUDIES!

So what if you're a geek?
A good honors degree will shut those un-geeks up.
It's Instant Gratification versus Delayed Gratification.

It's Suffer now, Play later...
or
Play now, Pay later...

*Sigh*
About other things...
I feel a sense of disappointment...
A quiet disappointment...
But once you commit your troubles to God...
You Let Go, Let God.
Have faith.
Don't worry about it anymore...
It's in good hands.
Yes... that IS Faith...
"Jesus take the wheel,
Take it from my hands,
Coz I can't do this on my own,
I'm letting go,
Give me one more chance,
Save me from this road I'm on,
Jesus take the wheel..."
Did I mention that I love Country music?

Reflecting on Life...



Friday, April 20, 2007

Am I saying 'NO!' to God?

Since as long as I can recall...
I've felt I had a specific calling from God.

It's a consistent nagging deep down inside...
It's something that occupies my mind whenever the subject is brought up...
It's simply...
Becoming a missionary...

I don't mean going on mission trips...
It's more of total dedication to the salvation of countless others.

I've always resisted it.
I know it's not noble.
I know it's selfish.
But I can't bring myself to give everything up.

I want so much more.
Am I saying 'No' to God?
Do I have the right to do that?
Will he put me through something I cannot resist?

It frightens me to think about it.
I don't even dare to pray about it.

Like something else...
I'm afraid of the answer I might get...

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Some Hearts

Hearts are fragile,
Spun like glass,
Yet strong as metal,
But prone to rust

-Michilli-

This came out of the blue in the studyroom...
No wonder poets were generally depressed people.
I need to find a passion to commit to......

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Tell me it's alright...

It's never enough...

Not smart enough,
Not pretty enough,
Not witty enough,
Not patient enough,
Not tall enough,
Not slim enough,
Not sweet enough...

It's just not enough for the 'enuff' monster...

I lost my mechanical pencil and found it impossible to concentrate on my work without it...
Needed it for drawing graphs...
A pen just would not do.

That's alienation for you...

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Why we suffer...

Ever wondered why God put suffering in our lives?

Read this...

Tears on Earth, Rainbows in Heaven

A person, who has never experienced rejection in courtship,
has no right to comfort the broken-hearted.
A person, who has never experienced loneliness,
would not know what it is being lonesome.
A person, who has never experienced defeat,
would not understand the feeling of helplessness.
A person, who has never experienced sickness,
would not know what is misery.
A person, who has never experienced criticism,
would not comprehend the injury caused by ridicule.
A person, who has never cried,
would not be able to comfort the sad.
A person, who has never experienced humility,
would not be able to sympathise with the meek.
A person, who has never been cast aside,
is not deserving of the throne of the accepted.
A person, who has never been subjugated by God,
would not be a suitable instrument for God's use.

Without the Cross, how would there be the crown of glory.


Bottom line being....
God has intended to use the tears on earth to build the rainbows in the sky.
Using us to give hope and comfort to others.
I'm starting to understand and appreciate fully why I've been put through what I've been put through.
I can say now that I'm a more qualified friend...
It qualifies "I understand what you've been through... I know how you feel..."

So... shall we ask for more suffering then?
Shall we be suckers for torture?

Gawd...
The person who wrote this was a real optimist......

Best Un-Spoken

When in doubt...... Don't.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Frozen in time

Gu..goo...Good Morning Singapore...
Have you ever thought to not look at the subject of a photograph but to look at those captured in the background instead?
You see...
Posed shots tell you nothing...
Social action theorists will say that the 'self' you portray in the posed-photograph is simply a mask... it does not say anything about how you usually behave.
Then again.... maybe it's just too much sociology on my part...
[Tells you I've been working on sociology right?? : ) ]

Anyway, here are some shots taken and almost forgotten!


Ess and I at the National Stadium waiting for the Singapore vs Thailand match to begin...
Note the people behind us...
Guy on left is most probably a loving Daddy... showering affection on his baby...
Guy on right... well.. let's just say he's 'twisted'...


Was having dinner with Jem at LJS... This just cracked me up...
Please tell me you know why...

Anddddddd...
Thhhat's all the useless news for you today...
This has been Michilli reporting pictorially...

(Gawd... I can't even describe this...)

Till next time...
Say no to drugs!

Monday, April 09, 2007

Personally......

Do you enjoy doing personality tests?

Seems silly right?
Taking a test set by simply another individual...
Setting yourself to be judged...
Letting someone else define who you are...

Sad fact of the world is...
Is it another person's opinion that really matters...
We are brought up on this fact...
Our parents teach us how to win their praise (and the praise of their friends)
They insist on it, in fact...

Then you go through 10 years of compulsory education...
Again, you've got the rule books...

Heck, even religion defines who we should be like... who we should follow, who we should be...

And 'clever', modern us think that it's now cool not to have any rules.
The very fact that we say
'The only rule is that there are no rules'
already is a rule that we'll follow.

Irony...

I wonder how the first people lived...
No rule book to adhere to...
Adam and Eve had only to follow 'do not eat the fruit from that tree' (or something like that)
What else dictacted how they behaved???

Hm...

OOooo...Yummy









CHOCOLATE THERAPY!
You scored 81% SWEET, 70% CHUNKY, and 77% UNIQUE!
chocolate ice cream with chocolate cookies & swirls of chocolate pudding ice cream

You, my friend, ooze sweetness, just like this ice cream flavor. But there's much more to you than that...you tend to view things differently than other people and you like to engage yourself in creative, challenging activities. You're spunky, but not too wild, which is nice. Those who understand you tend to get along with you very well, appreciating all that you have to offer...and you offer a lot :)




My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:















free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on SWEET





free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on CHUNKY





free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on UNIQUE
Link: The Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream Flavor Test

VISTA!

Woot!

Finally back online!
New PC, Endless possibilities!

Ok...
Nothing much to say today...

Except...

Is it so wrong to run away from your problems?
It is strong or weak to take a detour?
Is "Don't kid yourself" such a negative phrase?

At this point in time... I really don't know...

Go for it?
I might... I want to... I'll try... :)