The Christian Depression

How will you find comfort when the world critisizes you?
How will you cure your heartache when the ones you love turn away from you?
What will you do if they leave you?
What if you were abandoned?
How will you find security?
Where will you seek solence?
How will you pray?
Where will you find the strength to?
Where will the motivation come from?

I was arrogant... so incredibly arrogant.
Who was I to comment on the traits of those and claim they were found wanting?
Presented with temptation, can I turn away?
Hypocrite I was, hypocrite I still am...
Hypocrite I am forever striving not to be.
Now I have not the right to critisize, now I have not the right to comment.
I feel my Lord is displeased with me, yet, I don't know for sure. Maybe I don't want to know.
I want to blame another, yet the only one I can blame is myself.
I'm worthless, yet I'm precious.
Has anything ever been so conflicting?
The Christian depression I'm going through...
This depression I'm in...
How will I get out?