Save me?

With exams so close and preparations not complete...
Where can one find the time to save the world?

Honestly...
Are all superheros academically brilliant?

They seem to live only to fight and use their powers for good.
How did they do in school?
How do they cope in school?
(ok... not just teen-aged heroes...)
What about having to work late nights in the office?

"I'm sorry... really want to save you, but I got to get this complete by tonight or I'll get fired!"

Oh sorrow...

Morality and Sense...

When does good sense become hard to follow?

When are your morals questioned?

I've learnt that you only know about yourself through interaction with others.
Like...
It's easy to say... "I'm slow to anger...I'm patient..."
Yet...
It's only through interacting with others that you really know how patient and slow to anger you are.
It's only then you are tested.

Now...
I'm a pretty sensible person (at least I'd like to think so)
I've got a steady moral code instilled in me by my parents and years in church...
Yet...
I'm actually starting to question these morals and sensibilities.

It really is a test in the real world now.
Away from the classroom.
I could say I'm struggling...
But this struggle is more with my justifying my thoughts and actions than anything.
Oh heck...
It's really not as easy as it seemed from inside the sanctuary of the church... :(

Instant Gratification vs Delayed Gratification

In almost any instance that I can think of...
Delayed gratification would seem far sweeter.

One thing though...
It only seems better on hindsight.
Like...
I won't be fully grateful for something till way down the road when I reflect upon it.

I think I'm easily motivated...
But not by others.
It has got to be from the results of my own effort.
Kinda anal... come to think of it.
I'm a sucker for self-satisfaction...
(Gawd... that sounds so wrong!)

Anyway...
Sometimes... I think I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
Blessed?
Very.
I've got wonderful people in my life that I'm never ever tired of seeing and whom I'm always missing, regardless of how little time it has been since we last met.

Cheers to you Lord!