Altruism

Blogging only happens when I have nothing else to do other than think about what would make an interesting read...
I don't usually just blog about what happened in the day in which I've just lived.
Some people do, but sometimes, reading those posts... I ask myself... "Is my life so dull that I have to read into another's life just so entertain myself?"

Been questioning 'Altruism' quite a bit...

In layman terms: the total opposite of being selfish.
Apply that to social psychology, and it's the willingness to help others without any concern for personal gain. (In fact, it's potential personal loss)

I was 'brought' up not to justify why helping others is a good thing.
In fact, come to think of it, I've never asked for a reason why I should help someone else.
The earliest answer I can recall to a 'why?' is "Because it's good"
Nope... never did question why is was simply 'good'.
Just took it as 'expected, compulsory' behaviour.
Never did see a reason not to help someone else.

We all learn by example, and I did... from my Dad.
Ever since I can remember, he'll help other people without any external agenda.
Just like a faithful Golden Retriever.

If I had to give it a term, I'll say he helped people because he had faith in those he helped, that they would not take advantage of his selfless efforts.

I'm going to call him up to tell him I love him...

I suddenly feel like I can do anything.
It's a matter of whether or not I want to get off my arse and start.

Don't get me wrong...
It's not that I've got ample time with nothing to do.
I just feel safe and strong now, you know... Confident.
I think I've proven and finally convinced myself that I'm able so long as I've got the Bible in one pocket and my handphone in the other.

This feels good...

Young Adults Cell Group

OMG!!
Lynn teleported in there and I joined them via satellite!
I've never regretted a hangover so much...
Haha...
And it's actually on the Church's website!!!!
Dammit!

We should take another one though...
This is happily outdated already...
:)

Why Do You Drink?

Someone asked me that at Zouk.
I remember being high enough not to think too hard and drunk enough to use that as an excuse for not answering properly.

Now, being completely sober...
I can attempt to answer.

I drink because I'm thirsty.
Wait... I'm not being my usual crappy self.
It's what I'm thirsty for...
A few months earlier, I drank to get drunk enough to forget why I was unhappy.
I drank, so I could find that bliss you feel when you're not thinking and your mind is focused only on what's in front of you.
I drank, so I could easily convince myself that I was happy, that nothing else in the world mattered except being happy there and then.
I drank for the moment, to live in the moment.
Am I making sense?

Maybe I need some alcohol to explain myself properly...

Anyway...
Now... I drink so I can get that same high I miss so much.
But now... it's less intense.
There's more control...
Then again, maybe it just takes more to get me drunk.
Nah...
I'm more content now.
I'm more settled now, so long as I'm not pressured to answer certain questions.

So now...
I drink to have fun.
That's not too bad is it?

I feel like dancing...
I miss ballet...

SIMply mates...
Scoopies galore!

Smiles all around please!

Motivation

One word to describe my day at Sentosa?

SHIT!

Nah... not literally...

Most of the ladies there had bodies that made the sand hotter than it already was!
OMG!
I'm so gonna work out...
Vanity vanity...
Well... it's worth it.

Um... anyone wants to go there soon?
Give me a call...

GTH!

Sometimes...

You just have got to know your own self-worth and scream to the rest of the world...

"SCREW YOU!"

That's right.
You don't need them idiots who lie...
You don't need them to know you're alright...
You don't need them judging you...

The only 2 that matter is God and yourself.

At least I'm telling myself that...

So Good

I woke up today with the realisation that Life is GOOD!

I have my schedule sorted out now and I've set aside time for

- Classes
- Work
- Family
- God
- Friends
- Myself

(of course, all those above in random order...)
Yeap... I am content.
Very at peace with myself.

But of course...
Note that something is missing from the list...
Floorball...
Mom and Pop are right...
It takes up a whole load of my time.

I'll have more stuff coming up soon...
For sure...
Some are activities I actually want to add and some I have a responsibility to add.
I'm amused at how one's priorities change so frequently and quickly and yet some priorities never seem to change.

Just what do we base our priorities on?

It's so situational.
At least mine are...

Ahh... but... Life is Great... Life is Good...
At least for now...