Good or Bad?

Ok...Remind me NEVER to club on a public holiday...EVER!
Zouk had a never-ending line that stretched all the way to KL...
Double-O had a crowd comparable to that of ants around a food source,
Finally... MOS had 2 lines that crawled...
I'm still bushed that it cost $20 to vibrate in there.
Music was not that brilliant.*sigh*
I should have stayed home.
Could not even hang out with Donny...

See how pathetic I look? Ess looks happy eh... Ha...

I guess there was good stuff peppered here and there...
Meeting Tiffany, Debbie, Pearlyn and Hilda (the Peter Crouches)...
And seeing Ess is always good.
But still...

I think I'm just in an irritable mood now.

Mercy to those who disagree with me at the moment.

So much to think about, worry about...

So much to do, so little time, so many responsibilities.

I'm starting to see why I thought life was meaningless again...

What's up with me?

Do you really know what's good for you?

If we do, then why do we still insist on choosing things that hurt?

Why do we put ourselves in situations that we know is not the best?

Why do we still 'try and see' when we blatantly know that the end is not going to be a happy one?

Again...

Is this Courage...

or Stupidity?

BESTIE!

AND...

Finally went out shopping with the best friend any Girl can have...

No... not a dog or a fat wallet...

ASSIELESTAR *sparkles around her name*

So I wanted to get some Rhinestones to decorate some plain-looking sunglasses of mine.

Went to PS, Spotlight and Daiso and got some nice ember-looking stones...
Let's see if I have any sort of decorative flair.

OMG...

I spent more than I intended to today...

Where did all that self-discipline go?

Had the most fun at this little stop at Doby Ghaut...

Don't we look fancy?

Any bigger and we'd look 'blur'

What nationality or race am I?

Of course...

Went back to PL to help with devotion... But that was on Fri, Sat and Sunday...

Ess... Can you stop falling ill pleeze? You're missing out on our 'picture'-perfect life!

It Just Has To Be

It's got to! It has to!

It'll be a blessing in disguise...

Don't think I've ever been this flustered...
Ok... Maybe I have...

Anyway...
Now I actually understand why bureaucracy is inefficient.
Seriously... simple decisions have to be approved by 'those above'
Nothing gets done quickly.

We had book Republic Polytechnic's Indoor courts weeks in advance...
Planned it all beautifully!
BUT
Ex-coach Gary had to call us this morning to tell us that the RP courts were UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

OMG!
I called almost every available source in search of an available court.
NP, NYP, NTU, NUS, TP, Woodlands Sports Hall...others...
Either they were all booked or they had to be approved from 'above'

Hey man... I have friends in high places... In fact, the highest possible.
Do you know who my Father is huh?
He's GOD!

*Sigh*
Feel so bad about changing the training date and venue...
I tried my best...
Really...
In fact, called from 11+am all the way till... 6+pm...
My freshly-charged phone ran out of battery at 6-ish pm...

Had to stuff my face with chocolates to keep alert.

Anyway...
I prayed about it...
And I just know that there is a reason for all this.
The exciting / frustrating part is waiting for the reason to present itself.

Patience is a virtue...

And now...

After a month of brain-spraining, mind-blowing, eye-shutting study...
It's suddenly over.

What to feel?
Joyful?
Ecstatic?
Free?

Honestly...
I'm feeling lost,
and tired...

Haha... Sucky...

Now there's more to do actually...
Deadlines to meet,
A diet to control,
Trainings to attend,
A competition to win...

Plus about a million events to be super social.

Not gonna be easy...
Ha!
I like... :D

Oh yea... and a holiday to look forward to!
Happy is me :)

Stupid or Daring?

I have a paper tomorrow...
A theory-based one at that...

6 Chapters...

Dozens of models,
Hundreds of pages,
Thousands of words,
Millions of interpretations...

Yet...

I'm still at chapter 2.

I started studying for this late.
Is that stupidity or daring?

I think it is the first...
Back to work...
Looks like it's another sleepless night...

Take me with you...

You know what I'd really like?

For someone to take me away from reality for a few hours.

I find that if you don't allow yourself to be impractical and carefree once in awhile, you lose sight of why life is worth living.

But what is being 'away from reality'?

You see... I've not experienced it yet...

Unless... ... ... ...

Hmm... Gotta watch this sometime...

Which Trainspotting Character Are You?

Hyper-un-globalist

You know how I get really really (bounce-off-the-walls) hyper with a few sweets or after food?

Smart smart I felt really tired after not sleeping last night...
(All for sociology...)

SO....

Smart smart I went on to guzzle down a can or 2 of Red Bull...

Now I can't sit still enough to study...
I've tried to read my notes, but with your body constantly moving...
Not easy to track the words in a paragraph...
All I can recall is that 'Web'-er is a frog and 'Mead' is a beverage...

Baaaah!
*continues bouncing off walls*

Oh... Did I mention?
*stops bouncing for a second*
I'm Happi-ER...
For some weird reason...
Is that the sugar talking?
Hm... somehow... I doubt...
*Grins and goes back to bouncing*

Don't think I'll pass...

I should not be online...

Nope... I should be at a desk, loads of rough paper in front of me, doing math...

Why the heck am I here?

I'm blardy nervous.

Had a few 'panic attacks' already.
(you know, when you suddenly think about how much you don't know and get all shaky and sweaty?)

My 'Panic Buttons'?
3 people in particular.
They've never failed me yet...
Thanks Pals... :)

I'm so gonna fail...
Ackk!
Ok...
Panic attack stopped for a bit...
I'll go back to the desk now...

Blog-break

Quite Numb already...

I'll really just have to cross my fingers (oh k.. maybe my legs coz I'll need to use my fingers to write) and hope for the best...

Ack...

Again I declare... I've never been so unprepared for an exam before!

(Surprise quizzes excluded)

Something to take the stress off...

At Canton Wok with the whole paternal side for Mothers' Day Lunch

And No... they did not serve fast-food...

But kids will be kids eh...

Ha! Total bill... $700++ (and that's discounted)

Best part is... Granny paid! (so much for Mothers' Day eh...)

Oh Gosh...

If only I could turn back time.

I'll be more practical in choosing which course to take...

If only I could turn back time...

I'll do so many things different!

Do I regret the paths I've chosen?

Honestly... no...

Well... maybe...

Ack... I don't know...

It's horrible to look back on life and regret.

I have faith that I'll finally come to understand why certain things happen in life...

I'll finally see the paths prepared by Him!

I'll finally understand why things happened the way they did...

I'll finally know why I should not have any regrets...

(it'll be beautiful to see how your life was mapped out by someone so much greater than anything on Earth --- wonderfully touching)

Can't wait to meet Him...

Maybe I'll cut short the process...

NO... Not by ending my life or anything like that...

But by having faith and not regretting (in advance).

I need Faith...

*picks up phone and dials Faith's number*

Bali Water

The only thing that keeps me sane at the moment is Bali...

Taking-off to Indo on the 3rd of June

Touch-down in Singapore on the 8th...

Really... it's the only spot in the distance that does not seem to get darker.

*stuffs pillow in face and BLASTS one HUGE SCREAM*

Ahh... all better... for now...
Talk about a health drink (barley water...)

So Sick...

Yes...
I'm down with the flu...
Ack...
But that's not what I'm 'So Sick' of...

Mainly, the exams are nearing!
Oh...
I love gathering info and learning, but having a deadline to meet (exams) really spoils the fun of it.
Alright... maybe because I'm just not prepared...
I can actually understand why some people would pay others to take their papers for them.
Who cares about self-satisfaction when you're on a deadline!

I'm rambling... Forgive me...

Tried to be a little more feminine...
Did the whole manicure thing...
Clipped, buffed, conditioned, painted...
Then I had to go pick the guitar up and play...
Paint flew right off my nails.

Thought it'd last at least 3 days (since GK training had come to a halt)...
No such luck...

Am I too much of a guy now?
Got mixed feelings about it...
*Sigh*

This post is so random...
Gawd...