'Reflective'

You know...

I sat up in bed a few mornings ago...
My eyes still heavy from the weight that sleep brings.
I opened my eyes, looking towards the amber dawn.
Then I thought to myself...

This is not the life I want to live.

I feel so unfulfilled.
There's something lacking.

I doubt it's anything material.
I'm already working on the spiritual.
Let's not talk emotional (because we ladies use the 'once-a-month' occurance thing too often).

What is it?
Why am I here?
What kind of life am I meant to lead?
Whose life am I meant to make a difference in?

I got a word in Bible Class today...
'Reflective'
Strange...
I am always reflecting... or at least I try to.
Thinking of what happened in the last few minutes, trying to understand why someone else or I acted a certain way...the why and how of things.

What kind of life are you leading???
Tell me... I'm interested in knowing... really.